Time

College orientation, forced to participate. Or else, I'll really have nothing to do. But, so tiring. Can't really expressed my true feeling. Not suitable for public eyes as yet. See how long can I stand this. Time moves on quick. And so do life. Isn't it?

Gonna go for the KL tour and Malacca tour. Pass time. What I'm lacking is probably courage. It will come eventually. It always did at the last minute. Or else, I won't be here. Will I?

Random thoughts and typing. Might not make much sense but I need something to do. So here I am... Typing randomly. Optimistic, pessimistic? Live in the past, live in present, or live in future? That's the quiz we were given yesterday. And guess which am I?

And another discovery, during Form 3, when the teacher asks us to do the personality test, at that time the result is I am stressed free. Form 5, from my attitude and feeling when compared with the symptoms for stressed, I'm also stressed free. Then in Form 6, all the symptoms of stress appear. Exactly the same as what the booklet says. So, it means that from that time onwards, I've changed. Hmmm... What's the trigger exactly? I can't find the cause. National service? I don't think so. They taught stress management at that time as well. If it appears already, i should know. Form 6. Really? Or now? More like came from that time.

What do I do when I'm stressed? I tend to run away from stuff I should do. Like doing cleaning suddenly, playing computer games, read, sleep, eat. I put on weight during the stpm exam. Then it goes down again afterwards. Hope I don't gain weight now again because of the stress. Nor do I want to loose weight. I think... hard to say, consider how choosy I am, the food here really isn't my favourite.