Worse

Last week, I fell sick! No idea what happen. Flu just suddenly hit me one morning. Then blocked nose through another night.. Can't sleep, can't breathe. Then stomach uncomfortable. No appetite.

My parents came over the last two days. Went shopping and genting. Quite fun, then time for me to be back in hostel. And I don't feel well. I am homesick. And wish to go home. T_T

Club

Yesterday, went for co curricular activities. I enrolled for gym. And it looks like hard word. To get my 2 credit, I've got to pass it. And it ain't that simple. There are exams! T_T I thought attendance is all I 've to do. But NO! Attendance only have 20 marks. And the passing mark is 50. I dare not think how I'll scrap through. I've no talent in physical activities... It's just not in me... Haih...

Today, went for fellowship day for Buddhist Society. It's not compulsory to join these societies. Just for fun. Played games and sing songs. Not too exhausting. So quite fun.. 5pm to 8 pm. And when we finished, the school is so dark. But there seems to be other classes and activities on. Because still got people around. Can't recognised my way. Luckily there are a few others heading for hostel so go back together. Or else, I'd lost my way? Hahaz... Probably not. Just that will be walking a lot of "longcuts".

Outing

Went to Jaya Jusco with my room mate today. It's a five to ten minutes ride using the Metrobus. So near! We had lunch at Papa John's. Ordered a pizza that comes with coke, breadstick and wedges. Both of us can't finish it. Too much.. >.< Shopping at Jusco for quite a while.. Then went back using taxi. ^.^ Overall a pleasant trip!

G2 gathering...

Wesak Day. N we had our aint no strawberry group 2 gathering... Meet at TARC bus stop at eleven. Then, for the first time I went on a bus. Bring us from TARC to Times Square. Went for lunch at sushi king. Ate away RM 80 of sushi. Four of us that is.. Divided into groups there as there isn't a big enough table for the 16 of us... ^^

After that, the movies.. Watch Priest. So many heart attack scenes that most of us had to close our eyes for those scenes... Mostly girls. When finished, some of the guys come out yawning... =.='

What the girl in the middle is holding are the tickets. Hahaz.. So long...

After movie, shopping... Window shopping for me though.. Hehe... Went back at 6pm. Then, it's my first time using monorail... It was crowded but fast. Afterwards, we used LRT to get back to wansa maju area. It was faster still. Really enjoy the experience. But truth be told, without a guide, I'd probably get lost again... Because, I don't really know how it works yet... Last stage back to hostel, I got a cab. It's raining and I'm really not sure how the bus system works at all. Overall a nice day... >.<

Well

When I feel frustrated, there's a new way to vent out my feelings. Wash clothes. Manually. Hahaz... Felt so much better after that.. Better than bottling up anyways... >.<

Sleep

Can't sleep... Even when I'm tired. Can't sleep too early, or else I'd wake up a lot during the night and that's not good. Made me even more tired. But no matter how late I go to bed, the next morning I'll wake up once at 6.30am, 7 smtg, 8 smtg... It's still possible for me to drift off to sleep if this happen. But, if I wake after 9am, impossible mission to get anymore sleep. I'll just stare at the ceiling or my surrounding.

Funny thing is, lecture hours, I felt really sleepy, the feeling that I can sleep well. Then, after lecture, thought would take a short nap, sleep eluded me. Really annoying...

First week

Had all my lectures this past week. Introduction to Accounting (IA) is a little confusing for me... I'd need a lot of time to remember the specific names and terms. There are still some part which I have no idea how to differentiate. SO good luck figuring out everything.

Hubungan Etnik (HE) is a subject I consider a waste of time. Why the hell do I need to study it? To pass the exam? WHy do I need to take the exam anyways?

Microeconomics (ME). At first I thought, is it hard? Now, my answer is, yes. Damn hard to understand. Common sense help in some aspect but so many laws and factors, I'll need to memorize them.. Not really sure what the first chapter is talking about, the lecturer is okay but my brain needs time to suck it in still.

Quantitative studies (QS). <3 Almost like MATHS T. SO, I just need to refresh my mind and think back. Hope the info is still somewhere in my brain and I didn't give everything back to my teacher yet... ^^

The lucky part is everything is taught in English. The not so lucky part is my brain still in holiday mood. Trying hard to get it to start working, stop dallying..

the situation is....

okay, let's see.. I was fine this morning, afternoon, evening then suddenly, got a lil' upset... WTH! It was okay one moment then not the next.. I need a distraction... T_T

Feeling down

One day happy one day not... My feelings are mixed. But mostly felt empty... WTH is the matter with me????

Update

My room mate is here. She seems nice. So no worries there yet. And I went and bought a broadband. The name's 'yes'. Never seen it before. But it seems pretty quick. Much quicker than the one I had, Celcom whose line disappear from 8.30pm onwards. Annoying because that's the time I online.... >.<

New Book

I finished this book, Secret Society by Tom Dolby in four hours. And I can't wait to get my hands on the second book, The Trust. How the hell am I suppose to get it!!! T_T *frustrated*

The plot was nice. Different from the other books. Fresh. The characters are mostly rich people with endless possibilities for their future. But, they aren't stuck up. They have their own dilemma. The societies help them but, you can never quit the society. And it isn't that bright and easy. There are complications and things can get deadly. Overall, interesting...

I want BOOK 2!

That tour

Starts at 9am till 6.30am... Real exhausting. First stop, Royal Selangor. They make pewter there. Went to the archieves. Lots of pictures taken. Souveniers and homeware, gifts made from pewter are seen. They have Lord of the rings statues and heads made from pewter.
                                                         

Next stop, handcraft complex. There's a gallery with all kinds of exhibits.  Describing our culture.
Then the petrosains. My first time here. It's located inside klcc, fourth floor.

And of course I take the chance to visit the bookstore, kinokuniya. First time here as well.

Also went to cocoa boutique. They sell chocolates. All kinds. From normal dark chocolate to curry flavoured chocolate, Tongkat Ali chocolate. But they are way too expensive. Also went to batik factory. See them draw the batik. Pretty. And skillful.

Last stop, Titiwangsa. First time here as well. Hehe.  Breezy and large.

Then, time to head home. As in back to hostel. >.<

New theory

maybe my stress comes from the feeling of being trapped. Now I remembered. During NS, I had a strong feeling of being lock up and no freedom. That time I felt horrible. Like trapped in a jail.. Now, the feelings are quite similar. I don't like not being able to go out because I'm not familiar with my surroundings. So, is it possible that the stressed comes from feelings of being trapped? Losing freedom?

That's the event: Ain't no strawberry!

"Strawberry Generation: They look chic and sophisticated. They are soft and get hurt easily. They seem unbearably spoilt and can't take much pressure. They are the so called strawberry generation."

"The term was coined by taiwan writer in one of her books about office rules. This expression is now finding its way into mainland, and refers to young workers, of only child families, who have been active in the workforce for just a year or two. They are generally well educated but are self-centered and give too much importance to appearance and material comforts."

Above is quoted from the booklet given in the event organized for freshman "Ain't No Strawberry!"
The event was quite fun. Starts from 9am till 4.30pm. The ice breaking game is forming groups of three and two roleplay trees and one roleplay squirrel. Now, when they say timber, the trees switch partners. When they say hunter, the squirrels changed trees, when they say "TSUNAMI", everyone scatter and find new partners. Be it trees or squirrels. Then go into groups randomly. I'm in group 2. There are 12 person in my group and two instructors(seniors). And it's like telematch/station game.

First station, pass balloon using your legs to the person behind you. There are eight rounds. Second station, like the japanese scooping goldfish game. Instead of goldfish, we have to scoop ping pong ball. Two balls at a time. Using a plastic frame with handgrip and tissue paper. Be creative. Try to strap the tissue paper onto the frame. Only three pieces of tissue is given. Altogether scoop 6 balls. Then there's the bonus game as well. Fun.

Third station, guess the word. 4 person give hint, four person guess, another four wait at the side. Then change place. Fourth station, six person in a group. Tie the legs together, then move forward then back again. Funny.. Fifth station, easier. Just draw the stones needed from a box. The stones sre coloured and have to pick the right colours. Lucky draw. But by that time, we're tired and thirsty. the weather was so hot. After that, went for lunch.

Not finish yet of course. After lunch, went inside the air-conditioned hall(thank goodness). Played a game called treasure hunt. Five chairs in the middle. All groups form circle around the chair. Then when the MC asks for items like, 5 shoe laces, each group have to collect from their members the item then run to the center and sit on the chair there. The MC asks for things like longest hair, shortest person, watches, shoes, socks(eww...) and longest leghair... Lol...

Afterwards, watch a drama presented by seniors. Great performance. And looks familiar... Hmmm.... Hahaz. Then group sharing and at last, dance, take photo and head home! Long day! Exhausted.

Just wondering, am I a strawberry? Are you? ^-^

Time

College orientation, forced to participate. Or else, I'll really have nothing to do. But, so tiring. Can't really expressed my true feeling. Not suitable for public eyes as yet. See how long can I stand this. Time moves on quick. And so do life. Isn't it?

Gonna go for the KL tour and Malacca tour. Pass time. What I'm lacking is probably courage. It will come eventually. It always did at the last minute. Or else, I won't be here. Will I?

Random thoughts and typing. Might not make much sense but I need something to do. So here I am... Typing randomly. Optimistic, pessimistic? Live in the past, live in present, or live in future? That's the quiz we were given yesterday. And guess which am I?

And another discovery, during Form 3, when the teacher asks us to do the personality test, at that time the result is I am stressed free. Form 5, from my attitude and feeling when compared with the symptoms for stressed, I'm also stressed free. Then in Form 6, all the symptoms of stress appear. Exactly the same as what the booklet says. So, it means that from that time onwards, I've changed. Hmmm... What's the trigger exactly? I can't find the cause. National service? I don't think so. They taught stress management at that time as well. If it appears already, i should know. Form 6. Really? Or now? More like came from that time.

What do I do when I'm stressed? I tend to run away from stuff I should do. Like doing cleaning suddenly, playing computer games, read, sleep, eat. I put on weight during the stpm exam. Then it goes down again afterwards. Hope I don't gain weight now again because of the stress. Nor do I want to loose weight. I think... hard to say, consider how choosy I am, the food here really isn't my favourite.

Now I KNOW

I wonder. If internet, computer, phone is that important. All I need is a book. Usually. Now, nope. I need something more to occupy me. I finish reading too quickly. Not enough books. And they are a too expensive hobby. So, I turn to the internet. See... It takes up more time. Fill in the boredom. Actually, I don't find much to do in the internet as well. Watching drama, connection too slow. Best just surf the net, facebook, gaia. Look for games and so on. Life is so empty and boring now. Give me something interesting to do!!! T_T